i'm really in shock when my gf told me her dad passed away last Sunday morning....cos all of us tot he had recover n going back home soon....i cant help crying, tears cant stop falling...all seem not true...all seem like a dream.

i just got to know my gf not long ago. i only met her dad once. he already gave me such impression tat he was gentle and kind. he and his wife were so loving at their age, im deeply impressed by their love, infact i was touched. To me, the kind of love they had are amazing. i never tot i can love like them....

i never go n help out on Sunday nor going to church, cos i think i better let them have some peace. and also becos im not ready to face anyone, i dun wish to go there crying infront of them wor....will make them feel awful...so i wait till monday....

i have been to the wake since monday helping out. uncle have alot of relatives, friends and customers tat show up. these again showed he is a good man, a well respected man. make me wonder, when i die, will there be such crowed at my funeral ma...

although i just got to know them....but i felt i have to help, somehow. tonite i wanted to spend a nite at their place, cos im worry for them, my gf n her mum...i noe the last nite is the worst nite, it brings back the memory of my mum's funeral. the last nite i nev sleep a wink, never had eatern for days. i have totally lost my voice due to lack of sleep, food and weepings non stop....its the worst experience i had in my whole life, its even worst then the time i was being mentally n physically abuse....the lost of a love one...its great great tormenting experience...

Dear PaPa God, pls help them~ pls gif them peace and comfort tat they need so badly now. pls heal them. In Jesus name i pray.Amen~ ღ♥ღ